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Guess what? It’s time!

I just had a call from the hospital and they’ve had a cancellation! I’m going in tomorrow morning for my op!  I am having my jpouch removed, my butt sewn up and a permanent ileostomy formed.

I am a bit in shock, it is all very real now.  I mean, I knew it was coming but this is it, the final day of my life without an ostomy.

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I’m scared, upset and bewildered but life at the minute is crap, I am so ill, I go to the toilet 20 times a day and have accidents, so it has got to be better than this!

I will ask Timm to update when he can, if you don’t already, you can follow me on Facebook and twitter where I am more likely to be (though the internet/phone connection in the hospital is shit!)

It’s a big operation and recovery takes a while, but I will try and blog whenever I can.  I just hope this is the start of a new, happier and healthier life for me.  I’m a bit in shock and need to go pack my bags and get myself ready, so I’d better get off now as I think I am waffling.

I’ll see you all on the other side, yo.


Sam xxxx

25 replies
  1. Louise
    Louise says:

    All the best for it. Been following your story since that brilliant piece you did about publics toilets! Wishing you a speedy recovery. xxx

  2. Josh
    Josh says:

    Don’t forget to post when you do your last ever poo! 😀

    On a more serious note, good luck and best wishes. I had my jpouch removed 12 months ago after the most miserable year of my life, and have subsequently had one of the best years of my life (not least because even being able to do the most basic things like popping to the shops without discomfort or fear of an accident became a real pleasure). I hope you get the same deal, we all know you deserve it!

    See you on the other side! J

  3. Caren
    Caren says:

    Hooray!!! It’s better this way….less time to think about it! Wishing you the best of luck and a very easy and quick recovery. This is your last surgery!!! Woohoo!!!!

  4. Ella
    Ella says:

    Sending you lots of love and best wishes, Sam! Eeeeek! My hubby is going in next week to his bum sewn up, rest of his colon removed, and a permanent osteomy. He’s shitting himself!! (But not for much longer, hehe) Your page has helped us both loads… Hope it all goes well for you xxx

  5. Jenny warmington
    Jenny warmington says:

    I want you to know that I had this operation in April and it was ok. I was in hospital for two weeks and my recovery was slow, I feel a sense of freedom in the fact that I no longer need to worry about pooping myself and I love that I don’t have an operation hanging over my head for the first time since 2013. I hope that you feel the same sense of freedom and that you are ok. I will be sending you kind thoughts and hugs. Xx

  6. Francine
    Francine says:

    Good luck! Good on you for putting yourself out there during such a scary and emotional time. We’re all behind you! x

  7. Paulette
    Paulette says:

    Good luck sam for op you wont look back
    Its all scary stuff but the out come will be good Be thinking of you ? Prayers are with you xx

  8. Meg
    Meg says:

    Wishing you all the very best Sam. I’m possibly facing a permanent ostomy at some point this year and you’re definitely not alone! Keeping everything crossed for you. Go get that Barbie bum!! Xx

  9. Jennie Carter
    Jennie Carter says:

    I don’t have any personal experience to share with you and to reassure you. But I wanted to say I hope all goes ok and your recovery is fast and straight-forward. You and your family deserve some happy times with no worries or pain discomfort and embarrassment. I’ll be thinking of you. Get well soon. xx

  10. Rinse
    Rinse says:

    Best of luck Sam. I will be thinking of you. Hope this will improve your quality of life. Thanks for all your lovely informative posts. Lots of love x x x

  11. Lotte
    Lotte says:

    Good luck lovely lady! I hope it makes a huge difference for you and things look up! I had open hernia surgery recently and it wasn’t fun but I’m feeling like a new person 7 weeks post op I hope the same happens to you xoxo good luck!!!

  12. Dolores
    Dolores says:

    Wishing you the speediest and smoothest of recoveries. I LOVE your posts – they make me feel less of an outsider and have the knack of being able to put into words what I’m often feeling. xx

  13. Suzanne Wheeler
    Suzanne Wheeler says:

    Thinking of you Sam as always. You will be much better. I had this op after rectal cancer which was reversed but I have awful problems still and wonder now whether the reversal was a mistake? Hang in there. You have made the right decision. Sue x


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